Props

I wanted to say thank you to everyone supporting me. I mentioned it a tad earlier, but really you don't know how much of a help it is. Knowing I have people rooting for me, listening, reading all this is super fantastic. Work as you know has been super, my dad and moms (yes I have two), my huge cirlce of friends, even people from highschool and friends from Amsterdam. My dodgeball peeps, my teammates and lastly my cutie patootie husband! THANKS

Way to go Nikki, Odessa, and Stacey

Meet our new captain and co-captains! They have been rockin' the house since day one and I swear Odessa carried me up the stairs on her back that one time! At least that is what it feels like when you have Stacey and Odessa fired up and keeping you going up those stairs. Those tall, tall, never ending stairs. Nikki is just a little ray of sunshine. I swear I don't know where the girl gets it but she is on all the time and lights a fire under all of our butts for sure. Then we have Christy who is just about as sweet as sugar can be! That girl keeps pushing through the pain. What can I say about Rachel? SHE LOST ELEVEN POUNDS. Come on....that should say it all right there! Ahsley just had a baby and is not only missing time with her baby to be there, she JUST had a baby and is doing stuff I can't do... never having had a baby. Last but not least is Monika (with a K) and that girl, sleepy as she is, gets on those stairs and pushes and pushes to get the job done! What kind of team is that? An AWESOME ONE! As Stacey always says HOO-RAH!

Thanks again for all the awesome support you guys have given me! I tell you this is HARD and it is all I can do, but you guys there cheering me on is what helps keep me going!

In another blog I will try to pay homage and show my appreciation to my peeps who aren't on my Memphis Biggest Loser Team. I mean my home team with Dad, aunts, friends, work, cousins, even peeps on the other team! For now I will just say you ROCK!

I am TIRED!

Is it possible to be tireder? Is that a word? I know, it is more tired, I am just making the point that I am SUPER FREAKING TIRED! And ya know what? I don't have any kids. I don't have to drive from Drummonds, I don't work in Frasier and I am not in school (way to go Nikki and everybody else working their A$$ off). So am I just a big fat whiny baby? Well, I know the first part is right. That is why I am doing all this to begin with but baby? Yeah, I think I am that too! I think I have never dreaded anything so much. I will say I am totally digging on out trainers now. They are really showing us they DO have personality and while they are pushing us enough
to make me want to "break bad" on them, they for sure are making us do things I always said I couldn't. Guess what? I CAN. Uh Huh, I CAN. I may hate it in a "I'm overweight, outta shape, this hurts kinda way," but I like the fact that I am trying. People who didn't make it are pissed because we had a person quit, etc etc. Right now I don't feel like trying to make excuses or prove to anyone that this is hard. In reality there is NO WAY, anyone could know what we are going through. Our trainers may not be warm and fuzzy like Brian and Kelly but dang if they aren't effective. I am just tired. I am grouchy, a little weak and basically frustrated. I of course say all this with a smile. I will keep going and just because I am fussy right now doesn't mean I don't get my dance on and enjoy my team and the thought of the ultimate goal while I am there. Being healthy is the best prize!

Grams is sick.

Well, I am still keeping on keeping on and I am NOT quitting, but right now my grams is in the hospital in critical condition with her organs shutting down. Doesn't look good but ya know what you guys can do? Pray! Makes a person look differently at trying to get through an exercise class when you realize other people can't even get out of bed.

I may be a hair light on the blog the next day or two until we know what the status is, but I will still be here. Have a great day and don't forget to pray if you happen to do that sort of thing! Thanks!

Four pounds! Can I get a what what??

I sooooo think our trainers are warming up. Matt smiled today and I swear he even laughed! Antoinne gave us a pep talk too and I peeped his abs!! I about fell off the elliptical!! (Just joking I was doing weights but I would have fallen off the elliptical).

I think they like us, they really really like us!! They still made me throw up, but hey, that is their job right? We worked out for TWO hours tonight. I can't feel my legs and I think I have gone blind. But that is oooookkkkaaayyyyy! Ya wanna know why? Cuz I lost four pounds! I lost four pounds!! YES I DID YES I DID! WHOOO HOOOO!!

I think I might bust out in my thong leotard tomorrow for training! I am so just kidding but it is coming!

The only bad thing about tonight is that I missed dodgeball. My team had six players, so I am told, so hopefully all ended well. I don't think I could have bobbed and weaved tonight anyway. Instead of weaving I was heaving!

Oh shuh uh.....

Okay so let me break it down for you. There are two teams, both of which started with ten people. Team one - aka Numero Uno (The Food Fighters) lost a person yesterday. Team two (those who shall not be named) have all ten. Today was weigh in. IF I have this right, and it is a BIG if, The Food Fighters lost collectively, with nine people 47 pounds. Team 2 lost 56 pounds with ten people. For us, the magnificent Food Fighters, that is an average of 5.222222 per person. For team two that is an average of 5.6 per person. So if my math is correct that is about .38-.40 more than my team. Good job by both teams!!

Now here is the deal. I am not playing against the other team. I like the ones I know, and am super proud of them and us, and feel like we are all kicking butt! That being said, they trained 5 times (I think) and we trained TWICE.

Now, please keep in mind I am not trying to say anything disparaging. In fact quite the opposite. Before somebody starts some drama, this is NOT about the other team. It is about countering a comment one of my trainers said and letting my team know what a super fantastic job they did.

This is a competition but I am NOT in competition with the other team. Heck, I don't even see myself competing against my own team. I am competing against myself to do this! I think I felt that way from day one. Which mirrors what one of our trainers said which is that we can compete with everyone and win, but when we get to the top what will keep us there is competing with ourselves. No one else made me fat. I DID. I am here to work that off for ME and keep it off.

While our trainers have a different style about them then team two, they are pushing us to go past what we ever thought we could. I feel that in essence, what we did in two training sessions is the same, if not more, with our diets, exercise and attitudes! That deserves a hand clap! I hope everyone on our team knows how wonderful they are!! And again, it is about telling my team...YOU DID GREAT!!

And yes, I think our trainers could accomplish the same thing with a warm and fuzziness they currently lack, but I can't say they don't push us to achieve more than I ever thought possible. Besides, we as a team are doing that for each other as we have been and will continue to be! THANKS TEAM and CONGRATS to everybody!!

One more thing....

They (my muscles) also meant to tell you that they don't like the stairs!

Who is there? Who keeps talking?

Oh there you are!! I have trained so hard the last two days I thought I was hearing things. Then I realized that was all my body parts begging me to stop torturing them. It was hard to hear anyone else over them screaming!

"WhatchootalkinaboutWillis"

My legs feel as though they have been set in concrete and I am pretty sure I would eat the bark off of a cactus if it was offered to me! This was just a little something fun that made me smile and laugh!! It has every time I have watched it. I thought today it was appropriate. He reminds me of what I wanted to do with our trainers today! Laugh or have that look of "WhatchootalkinaboutWillis." You have to click on this link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I5ALIL7T764 . I am not savvy enough yet to just make the video appear here! Have your volume on when watch it!

I'm Alive!!!!

You might just think that comment makes no sense. Well, IT DOES TO ME!! I just got to work after our morning training session and I think my legs have just now stopped shaking and I still can't take a full breath without hacking up a lung!! They really did some serious training today. I knew it wouldn't be easy. I am out of shape and have been for years. I have taken other classes and have even been in an exercise boot camp which was brutal but fun. This, was not so fun. Of course I say that, but my team was super fabulous. Everybody just really pulled together to keep each other going which made it fantastic!! I hope the rest of the team knows how good they did. Our trainers aren't much for praise which is fine, they are pushing us, making us eat icky stuff, and don't smile much, but that is okay because again, they are making us push push push - we need it. It will get harder and that is okay too, I just hope my team stays together and proves to them we can do it. They haven't broken me yet but ask me again in a few days when the sore muscles kick in!!

How hard can it be to boil eggs?

Well, I don't know because I am still trying it. How sad is that, when you have to look up on the Internet how to hard boil eggs. For now, I am chawing (not a real word but accurate) on my grapefruit. I have had my tea minus the lemon (which I need to get today along with my chicken) and I am still drinking my 1st 12oz water. When the eggs get done, I can have two as stated so plainly below!! And I mean plain. Do you see any salty, cheesy, sauce like goodness on that list? NO!! Please wish me luck and perhaps pray because I am going to need it!!

By the time you can read this, which to you will be today and to me it is tomorrow, you can vote for me once a week. Please do! You may can win something cool too!!

***First thing when waking up 8oz water with a green tea bag, add 2 tbsp lemon juice***
Breakfast~ grapefruit, 2 hard boiled eggs, 1 slice wheat toast, 12oz water
3 hours later~snack~ 1 apple, 12 oz water
3 hours later~lunch~ 1 chicken breast, 3 cups romaine or spinach, 4 veggies, 2 tbsp vinegar dressing, 12oz water
3 hours later~snack~ orange, 12oz water
3 hours later~dinner~ 8oz talapia, 10oz steamed veggies, 12oz water
Snack after dinner~ 1 apple

The Last Supper

Chicken wings, salad and cheesecake....mmmm hmmmm good!! I can't or won't say what my actual last meal consisted of, but I can tell you that my diet will be changing drastically in about....ohhhhhh, I don't know...NOW!! We met the trainers today and if I do say so myself, there is something to be said for being in shape! HOT is all I am saying! But enough about me... (just joshen ya). My life is about to become straight up intense. I think they think they can break us. I am not sure, but I can figure out that I will probably want to cry at least once during this endeavor but if it is because I can't have cheese or because the trainers are kicking me in the hind quarters remains yet to be seen.
I had a great time today and I have to tell you we have some GREAT people on our team. I have said that before, but it is so true. I think the one thing that will help us all through this is each other. We may have different reasons for starting, but we all want to find the same end.

Thanks for your support!

I came to work yesterday with this on my wall and on my book shelf in my office! How cool is that! Susan in Administration did this! And today Pam the nurse in my office even bought me a fruit and walnut snack for breakfast! AND the day before Liz in my office got me a cool balloon and card!! How awesome is that?

Team #1 Is Numero Uno

I got a sneak peek at some of the blogs yesterday. They will all be up Monday and I have to say my team rocks!!

They are all super nice and we have some really funny folks on our team. It is supposed to be a competition and I think I am supposed to strive to beat them all (which I will), but they are cool which makes it difficult knowing someone will be kicked off every week. I can't speak for everybody, but I know that chunky folks in general don't just always want to have all their parts and jibblys out there for everyone to see.

I personally have gone through times of depression, discouragement, you name it. I have felt unattractive to my husband (even though he met and married me with me being big), I have fussed over finding clothes that fit. I am sure you have heard it all on Oprah, but the point is, all of us, team one and two are trying to make a difference in our lives. Some may be more shy than others, I don't know them well enough yet, but it takes guts and shows that they are truly wanting to make a change!

Okay enough of that. I am not depressed now and damn it...I want to wear some hot jeans/pants that I don't have to jump off the roof to get into!! I am about to bring it!!

The Countdown

Soooooo how much do you think I can eat before Monday? Okay okay, I am just kidding :) .....Well, maybe not completely. Am I gonna have to eat tofu? Ah well, if they tell me to, it will be the best damn tofu I have ever had, I can promise you that!!

As it is I think the Memphis Biggest Loser contest is an opportunity of profound proportions; I get to meet new people who so far seem GREAT, get personal training that I otherwise could not afford, and am being provided an atmosphere of competition that will hopefully give me the kick I need to stay motivated. Most importantly, I am being given the chance to prolong my time here. I know I have always had the power to make changes, I just mean for me and I think for many of us, this is something positive that can only help us achieve our goal.

I happen to have several goals and being able to wear hot shoes is perfectly normal!! :)

Why? Why did I say that?

Okay everybody….I got picked to be on Memphis Biggest Loser. It starts Monday. Today (Wednesday) we went to the radio station (q107.5) to meet everyone and get on a team and we were asked questions etc. I was asked to tell something embarrassing about myself. I ACTUALLY said I was so nervous I felt like I needed to vomit. YES I did say that (embarrassing enough without me adding another story). I have plenty of embarrassing moments but now I have to add that!!
Anyway, I will be working out twice a day for 8 weeks unless I get kicked off. Someone has to go every week. Anyway you should be able to go to the website www.q1075.com and see everyone, read blogs etc. I had to have a picture taken in a tank and shorts. NOT PRETTY FOLKS!!! Anyway, just thought I would ask for your support. If you see me eating a donut please smack it out of my hand!!